My sister has stage four cancer. She is going to begin chemotherapy in about a week. I hate this so much! I am mad, sad and devastated. I don’t know how to act. I don’t know what to do. I run the gamut of emotions from anger to grief. None of it even comes close to the dread I am anticipating when she makes her transition. My brother just died. Soon my sister will. The cat is 20. Any time now….Then I will be alone. Not really alone, but family-less. Still, regardless of all the friends and well good meaning acquaintances. I still hurt. It is times like this when I realize how much my Spiritual strength is holding me up. And I am grateful.