I’ve been finding myself in a less positive space lately. I’ve always struggled somewhat with maintaining a balanced state of mind (especially challenging when you’re a Libra, like myself). Anyway, I don’t really know exactly where this impatience comes from, but it’s there nevertheless. It rears its head when I least expect or welcome it. Often this seems to happen when I compare myself to another person. Even though Buddha said that the woods would be silent if every bird needed to sing the best, I find myself comparing myself to others more these days. Maybe it’s because I feel less accomplished than I want. Maybe it’s because I don’t know what I want (not necessarily a bad thing), maybe it’s because I just am. Anyway, the point is that when I get this way, I become impatient. I want change, but I am not sure how this change should look. It’s especially at times like this when I am tested about whether I believe that faith like water (slow and steady) is better than faith like fire (fast results, short effects). Anyway, I don’t know where this impatience is coming from, but it will be interesting to see where it ends up.
